get specific

June 17, 2007 Comments Off on get specific

I’ve been staring at this phrase for over two weeks now, “get specific” with no inspiration coming and now I understand why I pulled that card, get specific, notice the things around you, notice the people around you, damn it, don’t just let life pass you by. Tonight my oldest cat died of chronic renal failure and I didn’t notice that she was sooo sick until last night, I had no idea that she was that sick. Her weight loss over the last few weeks was her kidneys shutting down, not getting exercise, damn it, I should have noticed, should have noticed the specifics. It doesn’t feel right without her here, she was here every day for the last 15 years and I should have noticed that she was sick, that she was dying. I brought her home from the vet this afternoon to let her die at home, they told me she would probably die by tommorrow and I didn’t want her to die in some strange place, her death was not pain free for me or her and maybe I was being selfish to bring her home and not put her to sleep but I wanted her to die at home, let her know it was ok to go. Get specific, live life, don’t let it pass you by. Notice the people around you and really notice if they seem different, ask them if they’re ok or how they are doing. Get specific. I’m miss her, whose going to keep me warm at night now?

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